Date: Monday, April 28, 2008
thinking of you hurts, real bad. seeing you like that, destroys the whole of me. changing my blog URL verryyy soon.cant live with all of this anymore.i need to get a move. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Sunday, April 27, 2008
hello =)feeling damn depressed today. dreamt last night. cried in my slp. woke up feeling very down. talked to hakim in the morning. cheered up abit aft tt. talked to sis, listened to songs. thought of him and cried. he came over, gave bck my helmet. watched him through my window. saw a girl with him. watched them go away. broke down right away. broke down damn bad. it hurts.lying down, being at home, just makes things worse. decided to gt some fresh air. met hakim, chilled for awhile.. went tamp mart and evrything. felt a teeny weeny better. anwys hakim, if ure reading, thanks for cheering me up. =)) and alia, thanks for being thr when i needed someone the most. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Saturday, April 26, 2008
hellohello =))wed had sports day! OMGOMG. i sooooo love my freakin class okay! we won third place for the relay thingy =))) omgawwwd. they're like superrrr damn fast lah! im falling in love with all the sprinters, including the girls. haha! just kidding yawww. anywys, played MUSICAL CHAIRS for my class andddd Venn House. anddd, i freaking won the thing lah! sooo, im officially MUSICAL CHAIRS PRINCESS for the year. hahahaha =)) ok. i made a guy's lips bleed, some guy sat on me and i shared a seat with some mat. ALL IN A MUSICAL CHAIR'S GAME, baby!! hahaha =) gt 10 bucks popular voucher for winning -.- i knw, wth kan? anyways, lester and chan carried me aft that. LIKE WTH??!!! omgawwd. they are sooooo damn sweet okay! i soooo love the guys in my class. VERYYYY gentlemen.anwys, went out with indraaaa aft that. he fetched me from sch and we went toa payoh so i can change into hm clothes =) went to novena square to eat, cos it was raining anwys. then chilled ard =) he's a veryyyyy nice guy. reallyreally. no shit.adorable. yest, went out with him to esplanade. shall nt story abt friday.this afternoon went out with hakimi. =))) he fetched me frm home and we went tamp mall. alamak, wanted to go popular (shopping lah katekn!) but thennnn. stupid popular under cnstruction! wth? sooo we went to starbucks to talk and chill. hahaha =) we talked a lot, i guess. and the weird thing isss...he's my sister's fren. hahaha! i mean, i knw lah he's my sister's fren and all frm the start. i recognise his face. seen him ard my area a few times. he sent me hm aft tt at ard 8pm. he's sooo freakin sweet eh. sent me all the way,even accompanied me in the lift =)) kimi, if ure reading this, thanks for the drink and for sending me home and all. very sweet of you to do that =))indra gt into accident today. omgawwwd. feel sooo bad for nt being thr with him.hope he's alright. although i knw he's not.he's just lying straight to my face tt he's okay.URGH. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Tuesday, April 22, 2008
hello =))
rotted awayyyy at home on sunday. hahaha, slept the WHOOOOLE day. didnt bathe, didnt whatever. monday, went sch as per normal. went hm, gt ready and met indra =)))
went tamp mall, walkwalk..then chilled someplace, talktalk. hahaha, had a VERYYY FUN time with him. * thanks In for the wonderful day. always making me laugh. hee =) thr's a lot to say, bt i'll keep it to myself yaw! * WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Saturday, April 19, 2008
hello =)))went out at noon with most beloved,one and only, sisterrrr!! went out for breakfast smwhr at tamp, then went to chop2 hair! both me and her. hahaha =) waited for ONE BLOODY HOUR cos there's only one person thr attending to all customers.anwys, sister thinned her hair. and me, CUT MY FRINGE and thinned my hair. YAYYY! =)) i look soooo like my sister nw, really. i have the same length for my fringe. I LOOOVEEE MY SISTER. she's the best =))))))andd then in the afternoon, ard 3 plus. got ready to go out. left hs ard 4.30 and waited for indra at the bustop. hahaha!beloooo lah itu budak. dah sesat. bt smart, can find his way. haha!went to town, walkwalkwalk..talktalktalk..mepekmepekmepek..ate at cineleisure.basically, we just talked alot.and he NONSENSED alot.haha!then ard 8pm, he sent me home. thanks for the company, indra! sooo, here i am.blogging and rotting. i am veryyyy tired. might get an early sleep. tmr going karaoke-ing with family maybe! wowweeee. gonna bring my schwork thr. hahaha! ok, nerd. i know. okay bye y'all! WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Friday, April 18, 2008
i miss you and your memories.really, i do. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Thursday, April 17, 2008
I nvr said it was gonna be easy. not even for me. i nvr said i was nvr gonna miss you. cos i do. i'd be lying if i said i dont. two yrs will be hard to get by. two yrs of memories, will not be easy to let go of. you may not know how i feel, bt always remmber.i do miss you and memories of you are still lingering in my mind. sometimes i wish thr is a solution to all of this,but god no. there isnt one hella solution i could ever think of.and i freakin hate it when ppl judge me. LIKE SOMEONE. sheeshness.and i thought you were diff, changed from ur old ways. still as self-centered as you were FOUR BLOODY YEARS AGO. i am sooooo over it, tired and drained out. always waiting for something that's never gonna happen. GO TO HELL, really. i mean it. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Monday, April 14, 2008
hello =))many things happened recently. school's a bitch right now. sooo many tests coming up. i have atleast one test each week. yeah, school's really a bitch. cheerldg practice is soooo damn slack. i can fall aslp in the middle of doing stretches. last last sunday went out with my beloved gfs, sheena and lorraine! OMG. been suchhhha long time since we hung out. the last time was when? end of sec 3?? haha, two years back. went to vivo and town. hahaha. anywys, went to Junction 8 with them. Lorraine lah! she wanted to go watch anugerah band all. hahaha =) damnnn funny. she dresses like an ah lian bt acts like a minah. i swear thr's a trapped minah soul in thr. haha! then went to city hall. hahaha,SOOO BLOODY PACKED WITH FOREIGNERS CAN! urgh. disgusts me. sorry to say, bt their attitude sucks like hell. went hm ard 8.30pm. had a blast with them. they really really made my day that day =)) THANKS GUYS! always be frens.ya-da ya-da...weekdays,sch days...went out on friday evening ard 6pm..came home ard 8.45pm. No need to know whr i went. Memories. stayed home all day long on saturday. haha, slacked like hell. slept all the way. WOW. loved it. went out on sunday for awhile, from 5pm till 7.30pm. No need to know whr i went again. Memories.taken a few pictures for the past few days. ENJOY =))SUNDAY, 6TH APRIL 2008. GFS!!
MY PICTURES =))
WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Sunday, April 6, 2008
HA-HA. big fuckin HA-HA. oh please. you're acting soooo childish when you asked me to 'THINK MATURELY' lah ehk. duh, of cos i advised you like a friend, but also i advised you like a YOUNGER sister. true, friendship probs are not that childish. but for you to get sooo worried over it, is just sooo immature lah kay. friends COME AND GO. learn to accept this fact. and i would just appreciate if u listened to me. you're making such a big fuss by telling ur mom and everything. im old enough, i know what to do. im just cnfused over things. you could have just lent me a listening ear. dont have to blab everything to ur mom. WTH? i didnt tell ur brother anything if you asked me to keep ur secrets lah eh. you calling me immature or what? again? HAHA. girl, wakeup and ask urself who's immature here. what does writing everything abt you here tells abt my maturity level? IT'S MY BLOG. I CAN HAVE MY SAY. if i were immature, i would talk behind you or, put your name in my previous post ah eh. by letting you READ how i feel, you call that immature? FUNNY ah.hahaha. and abt tuition, it's okay yeah. you're still my student. well, ur bro said so. see? im being mature abt this whole thing kay. im not self-centred. i still care for you and your studies though im dealing with issues in my life.YEAH, CALL THAT IMMATURE GIRL. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Friday, April 4, 2008
hello =))
yest got my math test back.HA-HA. i passed. BIG SURPRISE. =) school's been okay sooo far. ''single'' life has been wonderful so far too. =0) IM STARTING TO FEEL NUMB. no, really. i really cant feel anything in my heart. i feel ignorant of anything that's happening ard me. i dont give a damn anymore.
cant fucking wait for sunday! WHEEEEEE~! they really made my day =)) thanks guys! i'll see you guys soon yeahyeah! WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Thursday, April 3, 2008
hello =))things havent gone well for the past few days. have been thinking alot. moodswings, all that shit. i have practically nothing to say.if you're reading this, i hope you do, im truly sorry for what has happened. i dont wanna talk shit, so i'll go sraight to the point. it's not that i dont love you no more, baby. i do. i still do. but i dont know if we're going in the right direction. you're like super perfect for me. VERY perfect. bt sometimes, you become TOO perfect that i wish you do mistakes like me too. now's a tough stage for both of us. we've been long together. but shit happens, im sorry. maybe im the one who's creating that shit, but wth. not that you're not good enough for me. i just need to see what's more to life. i need to see the world. for the moment, i just dont want to be committed. im still very young, honey. call me immature, call me whatever. but it's true. im still too young. i've told you this before last yr. but this yr, im already very sure of what i want. Freedom.and as for you girl, you know who you are. i know you're worried fr his safety. and i understand that. BUT, why the hell did you ask me to think maturely? and what made you sooooo bloody sure that i couldnt accept his decision? i accepted his decision MATURELY. dnt need to tell me how to act girl. you're still too young and naive to understand the world. you never knew what ive gone through in life, so dont you dare ask me to think maturely. as far as i know, im wayyyyy more matured in thinking than you are. atleast i dont get worried over childish problems like fighting with friends. i treated you like my own sister and my friend. that's why i confided in you.this problem is between me and him. you dont have to get involved, you know. we culd still be friends. what i dont understand is, why you have to dislike me now. really. that's childish. and you think that i dont care abt him? i do. that's why i dont intend to tell him how i feel and let him ride bike mcm org giler. you think im crazy and heartless to break his heart and allow him to naik moto?????? i thought we could be friends. i thought of you as my friend. BUT I THOUGHT WRONG.now, it's between me and my heart. i dont care anymore what you people think of me. Life is SHORT. i wanna enjoy every second of it. teenage years come only once. what im sure of, im gonna enjoy my teens until im ready to give committment. however, i do love you boy.oh yes, i do. but, lets chill for the moment. AND FOR OTHERS, PLS DO NOT GET INVOLVED. i really loathe busybodies. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
