Date: Saturday, June 28, 2008
hellohello =))BROTHER GAVE ME A ZEN! YESSA!! THANK YOU BROTHER, I LOVE YOUUU SOOO MUCH. though ive nvr said that to you, face-to-face. i do, really. =)))anwys, went out with emi tdy. =)) didnt really plan anything. it's just 'JALAN2 BUAT BODO'. hahahaa! wtf, i knw. waited for him at simei station to board the same train as him. he saved a seat =) LUCKY BASTARD. hahaha. like colour coordinateddddd gitu you! hahaha, i swear yknw. frm the first time i met him up till nw, the both of us are alwys colour coordinated. the reason why: idk. and we didnt even plan anything. haha =) wore a gray dress, white shoes and black bag. and him, black shirt with white stripes, black quarters, white shoes and black bag. hahaha =))) the FIRST time i met him, both of us wore ALL black, unplanned. 'the feeling is like HMMMM' kn, mi? hahahaha =))went to plaza sing and met his frens, zaini and ida. veryvery nice and great ppl to knw. easygoing =))) walked all the way to cityhall to eat at sakura. laughed my ass off thr. funny sia =)) yesyes, then went to marina squareee. chilled ard and stuffs. walked back to bugis and went home.lots and lots of things happened. there was jets flying ard at city hall. were watching it, skali the jets made the biggest heart shape ive ever seen in the sky. 'the feeling is like HMMM' gitu. hahahaha =) and it was the perfect moment. JUST SO PERFECT.so Shaik Mohamad Helmi, if ure reading this (which i KNW you will) thanks for the wonderful wonderful day out. i really appreciate everything today. and i shall treat you one day cos you kinda treated me sakura tdy. hahahaha =) and i had sooo much fun tdy, i really love tdy. made my heart smile, just thinking of everything that happened while we were out. =))to ANGEL. you knw who you are.there were sooo many perfect moments when im with you. too much of it, its like i need an extra head to remmber all of it.and i feel perfect whenever im with you, it's like what i needed.and everything abt you, it's too sweet to forget.i think im falling deeper each day, looking at you. hearing you.the way you look at me, the way you held my hands, the way you smiled.
i really cant get it out of my head, darling. and time passes by soooo damn fast when im with you.i want time to stop, and allow me to be in your arms forever.
I DONT DONT MISS YOU.=)) WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Friday, June 27, 2008
hellohello =)just one of the happiest days of my life.
and i hope it lasts.i really hope it will. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
SOMETIMES I RUN, SOMETIMES I HIDE.BUT ALL I WANT TO DO IS TO HOLD YOU TIGHT.HELLOHELLO =))will be going out ltr. meeting someone first, then meeting emi. exams are OVER, finally. hahaha =)) happy or whuat sia! bt yes, no doubt i'll fail everything. thanks to the NOT studying the whole hols. hahaha =) okay dah. whatever.the song Your Guardian Angel is my lullaby every night.never fails to put me to sleep during my sleepless nights.The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fightingIt couldn’t be that we have been this way before I know you don’t think that I am trying I know you’re wearing thin down to the coreBut hold your breath Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don’t make me change my mind I won’t live to see another day I swear its true Because a girl like you is impossible to find You’re impossible to find This is not what I intended I always swore to you that I would never fall apart You always thought that I was stronger I may have failed But I have loved you from the start Oh, But hold your breath Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don’t make me change my mind I won’t live to see another day I swear it’s true Because a girl like you is impossible to find It’s impossible to find So breathe in so deep Breathe me in I’m yours to keep And hold onto your words ‘Cause talk is cheap And remember me tonight When you’re asleep Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over againDon’t make me change my mind I won’t live to see another day I swear it’s true Because a girl like you is impossible to find Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don’t make me change my mind I won’t live to see another day I swear it’s true Because a girl like you is impossible to find You’re impossible to find-FALL FOR YOU- WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I SWEAR I WAS THE MOST HAPPYHAPPIEST WOMAN ON EARTH LAST NIGHT.i swear i loved the words you spoke to me.i swear i meant those words i said.BUT FUCK IT GOD, IM FEELING DOWN NOW.i shall not even try to hide it.HELL FUCK. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Tuesday, June 24, 2008
MY FAVOURITE BOYYYYY.hellohello =)))exams started and all that shit.im damn screwed up.cos all i want to do is play and play and play.and i dont ever wanna grow up.you knw, sometimes i get pissed. pissed with people who try so hard. people who doesnt realise hw they should treat ladies. people who doesnt realise whr they actually stand in the world. people who think too highly of themselves.confidence and self-esteem is good. yes, it's undeniable.but, TOO much of it, it's destructive to oneself.reallyreally, sometimes you just need to realise whr you actually stand in the world.cos there might be people who really dont give a shit about you.no matter hw smart you are.no matter hw RICH you are.LORRAINE prolly knws who the hell im talking abt.i dont ever want things to change.i dont ever want to make decisions.i dont ever want to feel.i dont ever want to think.i dont ever want to feel the hurt.i dont ever want to hurt.i dont ever want anything.all i want is for me to stay.to look at your beautiful face everyday.and smile, knowing you're there.MY FAVOURITE BOY. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Saturday, June 21, 2008
YOU SAID 'HI' AND I SAID 'HELLO THERE, SEXY.'hellohello =)))went johor with family on thurs =))) WHEEEE! HAPPY BELATED 21ST BDAY, KAK ZANA! went thr to celebrate my future sis-in-law's bday. hahahaha =) went to some hotel to eat lunch. darling mommy booked it in advance, MYGAWD! the buffet ahhhhh, eat until cannot eat anymore sia. i was feeling seriously FAT that day. PFFT. hahahaha =) damn boncit okay! bt ONLY on that day okay! then went to Angsana and my brothers and sisters (inclusive of my siblings' partners) shopped with me, while momma and dadda went to idk whr. hahaha =)) blablabla, went to eat at singgah selalu for dinner. HAHAHAHA, i ate dammmmmn selekeh okay. bt wtf did i care? no one's thr to watch me what. =)))) on the way home, watched kungfu panda in the car with everyone, except for parents (cos they're sitting in front). HAHAHAHA, damn funny okay! laughed my ass off in the car. it's cute, i swear. had the mostmost fun that day. cos i was out with family =))) and i LOVE them to bits. besides myself, i've only truly loved them. and no one else. nope, not even guys who were ever in my life.friday.....went for tuition in the morning, went home and slacked all the way. went out in the evening to buy Macdonalds for my angry stomach. anyways, saturday..haha, i studied the whole afternoon! WTH right! hahahahaha =)) yeah, then played the comp for the rest of the night -.- lagi WTH. its midnight alrdy, bt i will cntinue studying ltr. 1st paper's on monday okay! cannot play2 anymore. im in deep shit alrdy, thr's no need to go deeper.WISH ME ALL LUCK!i fucking need it. THANKS.=)) WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Everytime We Touch, It's Just Another Illusion.hellohello =))im NOT supposed to blog abt monday, due to some reasons. yest, went out with belovedbeloved gfs! syaz, azrina, huda and atiqah! yessaaaa =) missed them much. haven seen them for ages! went out to celebrate huda's bday. baked a cake at 8am and brought it over to azrina's hs at 11am. while waiting for the bday girl's arrival, syaz finished off the gift, okay idk wth and i did an EXTREME makeover on azrina. she's suchhhhh a GORGEOUS GIRL! azrina, if ure reading this, yes you are gorgeous okay. stop arguing. hahahaha =) waited frm 11am till 1pm for huda to arrive! MENTANG2 LAH BDAY GIRL. kasi muke naek kpale! hahahahah =))) took tonssss of pix after she arrived, have yet to gt them frm syaz! andddd ate the cake. i drank 2 boxes of milo, ate chocolate cake, and drank 1 box of chocolate milk. WHOA. mabok giler or what sia! hahahahaa. anwyssss, headed to bugis after that to eat at raffles hosp banquet. atiqah came at ard 3? yepyep. =)))) YANTI COULDNT MAKE IT for some reason. PFFT. alwys the same thing. anwys, yeah. us being together bck again brought back LOADS of memories. it was kinda sad cos ive missed them sooo much. miss bullying them, yes. hahaha =) i bully them ALL the time, HAHAHAHA =) nowwww, mentang2 da campor2 with the mat2 jc, all da pndai nk bully me bck yest! hahahaha =)hung out w/ them till 4.15pm, then headed down to pasir ris to meet emi. haha, helped him w/ assignmnt? hahaha =) ahhhh iye emi, hope you dont get a D for it. =) hahahaha! farid came dwn and we chilled tgether under the blk. hahaha, okayyyyy. farid's sooo caught up w/ the psp. emi's psp right? hahaha! mentang2 lahhh gt gegerl inside the psp.haha, cannot tear them apart sia. went to emi's hs aft tt, cos he wanted to put the foolscap bck at hm. hahahaha! there was a lembu outside his hs. HAHAHA, LEMBU. laughed my ass off, thanks to them eh. emi and farid sent me home, right to my lift. awwww, thanks guys. =)went to meet emi today. watched Jumper dvd with him. hahahahaha =)) it was a serious show, but idk why the hell i cant stop laughing at certain parts. wth, i knw. so yeah, chilled with emi until 5pm then went to get farid. they're gg out to celebrate their friend's bday. followed them to tamp interc, met their gf izzah, took the same train as them and alighted at simei to meet momma at 6pm. walked ard eastpoint w/ mummy to search for kak zana's bday present, then ate at sakura. =))LOTS AND LOTS OF THINGS happened during the course of three days.idk wth to say.maybe you shdnt.maybe WE shdnt.idk.to involve feelings into this matter, it's difficult.bt i cant lie, can i?lie to you, yes. bt lie to myself? no, baby.maybe you shd think things true before deciding.because THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO ME THAN YOU KNW.=))but, yes.those things i said.sadly, IT'S TRUE. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Monday, June 16, 2008
hellohello =)went to nenek's hs yest. misseddddd them sooo much. im nt really in the mood to blog, just thought of letting some things out. anwys, yes. went jln2 w/ grandparents.it never occurred to me that maybe, ive only loved one man in my whole life. maybe it's true. i just thought of it this afternn. and maybe the reason why i let go of everything, is because im afraid. afraid of what, idk. maybe afraid of losing that loved one. afraid he's making the wrong choice of choosing me. fuck, idk. faithfulness had been my problem, until he came along.i made a promise not to miss you. but, i cant live a lie. it seemed like yest, but truth is. it's been mileyears away the last time you held me. and i miss it. call me crazy, but it's true.SERIOUSLY, JUST CALL ME CRAZY.thank you. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Saturday, June 14, 2008
THE WAY YOU SMILED, THE WAY YOU LOOKED AT ME.hellohello =))went out to airport on wed to study with dinie, sis bf's sis. it was the first time meeting her, bt talked like hell =)))) seemed like we knew each other for years! WTH -.- heh. soooo instead of studying, we chatted all the way for 2 hrs? hahahaha! yesyes, left airport at ard 5.30pm. took the same train back. met Shaik Mohamad Helmi ( HAHA, idk why the hell i like to say his full name out loud. okay nvm -.- ) at Tanah Merah station. hahaha, dinie like paiseh2 bt i dragged her along. =) me and emi dropped off at tamp while she continued on to Pasir Ris to meet her boyfie. =)) sweet. sooo yeah, anwys. me and emiemiemi went to starbucks at tamp mall to chill ard. he is superrrrrrr damn tall. actually he's not THAT tall, but he LOOKS AND SEEMS tall. i really dont geddit yknw these ppl. so tall for what, also idk. hahahaha! yeah, soooo chilled, smokes, talked at starbucks. hahahahaha =) talked quite abit. and yes, we spent like what? 10 mins to decide what to drink???? LOL. okayokay nvm. chilled till 7.30pm. walked home, YES WALKED HOME frm tamp mall to my hs. hahahaha =) it was surprisingly, fun? hahahaa, idk if he feels the same way. bt yes, it was fun for me. reached my blk at exactly eight =) anddd he's a sweet fool. sent me all the way to my block. =) THANKS EMI. veryvery much appreciated =)went out the next two days to afgan mac to study with dinie. nothing much. hahahahahaha. baked cake for tryout with gfs, syaz and azrina =) GOD. missed them sooo much. cant wait for tuesday. HUDA'S BDAY. =)))))))) will be going out then.for now.nothing much. i think im over you, boy.yes, i know. finally.i miss the memories and all that shit. but yes, i can move on. and i hope you do too. be happy with someone else. =) thanks for being a friend now. muchmuch appreciated, boy. =)and for a particular someone.you didnt try too hard like some others.maybe that's what took my heart away.but yes, it's too early to say.TOO TOO EARLY. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Tuesday, June 10, 2008
hellohello =))mygawdddd, saturday. went to NTU for cheerleading workshop. dammit! it was superrrrr fun. when was the last time i had soooo much joy and fun trying to keep myself from falling??? tried soooo many stunts. nt easy ones though. some are like scary, bt when tried it and pactised it, it was okay. FUNFUNFUN. saturday's just a day of fun. was thr frm 10am till 6.30pm. DAMN LONG RIGHT! hahahahaha. i really cannot describe the fun i had.anwys, sunday we're supposed to go my paternal grandma's hs. bt she's nt hm. and since ive gotten ready and all, followed mummy and daddy to wedding majlis. and what was i wearing?? black jeans and white top. NICE. hahaha =) then aft tt, went to IMM at jurong with them. jalan2 all. mummy daddy bought me SLIPPERSSSSS! Melrose slippers. DAMNNNNNN PRETTY! parents bought my sis a diff pair, since she wasnt thr with us. hers was a pink one with a diff pattern frm mine. mine's ORANGE. i knw, since when i like orange right? hahahaha, oh well, anything goes for me nw. EXCEPT BLUE. idk why. i cannot bring myself to like blue. =)) soooo, yesyes. i LOVEEEEEEEEE MY BELOVEDBELOVED parents for buying me the SUPERDUPER PRETTY slippers!! =))) went to eat at jurong point banquet aft tt. thennnn went hm =))) it was a greatgreat day, though it felt like i was the ONLY child.mondayyyyyy was a super damn fun anddd interesting day! hahahaha =) LORRAINE SHOULD KNW KAN! woke up at 10.30am, ate mcgriddles tt sister bought. went out at 12plus to teman darling sister to salon cos she wanted to dye her hair RED. hahaha, feeling2 redhead. MCM PHM. fazli called and said he's coming to Mr Prata to eat, so left sister to meet him thr. accompanied him eat,then went to interchange with him. met his frens, hasri and idk who. left them minutes ltr, cos i was going TP and they were gg town to skate. met lorraine at TP and called heider a.k.a CICAKMAN. hahahaha =) went thr to watch soccer match. before the match started, followed heider to shop to buy ciggies. heider told me, match will start at 4pm. and guess what time they actually started?? fuck, 5.50pm! WTH. hahahaha =) meee and lorraine were like complaining cos we wanted to talk and the guys justttt refuse to start the game and leave us alone to talk. then, me and lorraine became the timekeepers. LOL. yes, we had nothing better to do anywys. game finished at ard 7.30pm. then me and lorraine wanted to go eat with my sis and bf. the bus was soooooo freaking late, till heider, ajul, zul, kecik, and 2 more ppl gt on the bus we're on. and they went out of school like wayyyy ltr than us? WTH kn? hahahaha. stupid bus no.8! soooo, ALLLLLL of them followed me and lorraine to eat at safron. hahaha =) ard 9pm, aft i finished eating, heider walked hm with me. cos sis and bf took the bike home. anwys, thanks heider for sending me home and all that. and hope ur nose's okay. =))))anwys, today planned to slack and rot at home. first, emi asked me out cos he's bored and all, bt wasnt sure i can go out. it was alrdy 3plus when he txted me. thennnn lorraine txted me and psychoed me to go out with her and hang ard TP. so took the chance to study thr lah. i think its better than i rot away at hm and do nothing kn? hahaha =)) went out at ard 5pm and went interchange to top up my ezlink. waited for emi also, cos he wanted to follow. sooo we walked to meet farid, then walked all the way to TP. i was sweating like fuck. and was laughing like hell. cos emi and farid's soooo funnny! met lorraine, zul and kecik at TP's bridge. split up again, cos me, farid and emi wanted the aircon sooo badly. and zul and kecik wanted to smoke. so lorraine followed them. anwyssss, cut the story short, laughed my ass off today. cos they're all sooooo super funny. reallyreally enjoyed my day. went to eat with them all aft tt. emi and farid sent me hm at 8.30pm, very sweet of them. yes, thanks guys for gg all the way. =)))))REALLYREALLY had fun today.i swear i alrdy have abs, thanks to all the laughing just nw.hahahahaha =))))will be meeting ady's sister for study session at airport.and emi's fetching me hm aft that.=))))takecare peeporl. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Thursday, June 5, 2008
hellohello =)))
mygawwwwd. this wk's a BLAST, i tell youuu! went out almost everyday? hahahaha. went out with sheena, visited lorraine at temasek poly, gt to knw her friends, met up with syikinnn, met helmi, blablabla. only wednesday i didnt go out. slacked at home all day long -.-
anywyssss, just gt home. went TP with lorraine just nw. intended to study thr with them all, ended up just lepaking ard. hahahaha =))) slacked ard in TP till 6 plus. then me, lorraine, syikin, nina, mango, heider, izam, zul and shahid walked to the playgrd ard 800+ to play blind mice. hahahahaha! wtf! sooo funny sia! they soooo noisy. anddd izam, mango and heider damnnnnn bastard! always trap me to let the blind mouse catch me. wtf. -.- buuuuut, too bad. small can selit2. soooo, their plans ALWAYS fail. hahahahaha! zul NVR gt to be the blind mouse. izam also, i think. RABAKKK. =) heider and mango kental, always kene tangkap. syikin andd lorraine, always kene jadi blind mice. hahaha =) NINA DAMNNN SPIDERWOMAN. panjat here, panjat thr. hahahaha! thennn zul's brother and his friends came to join. GRRRR. damnnn fun =) but had to leave them halfway though. -.- curfew, girl. CURFEW.
will be meeting them again nxt wk, hopefully. WANNA PLAY AGAIN! lol.
andddd if heider and mango's reading this...
HEIDER CICAKMAN.
MANGO KPALE HELMET!
LOL.
okay till then =)
im tired, damnnn worn out. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
Date: Sunday, June 1, 2008
hellohello y'all =)))SKM Cheerleading Competition was held at Taka yest. went to sch at 11am, did makeup and hair. left sch for Taka at 2pm. was soooooo damn nervous okay! blablabla, had to wait a looooonnnnggggg 5 hrs till 7pm to perform. hahaha =) yes, we waited for 5 damn hours. anwys, we didnt gt into the finals, bt y'knw, its really okay. we wereent sad or anything or feel that we've wasted our time training. cos the trainings we had, meant muchmuch more than just the effort put in. we bonded soooo much. we looked out for one another and all. anddd, we only gt the whole routine on friday evening. so to us all, we did very well for our performance and were sooo proud of ourselves. =)))) we were reallyreally happy even though we didnt gt into the finals. but we did cry, the girls i mean. cos this is the seniors' last performance, so aft this performance they're stepping down. =( i really appreciate every single one of them and im really proud of my team. we worked hard, and did our best. out of 8 teams, only 4 will be chosen. adat competition, there's winning and losing. =))) so it's alright.anywys, aft the results, hung out with team mates and beloved coach, taking pictures and stuffs until ard 8.30pm. then went off by myself to find sister and bf at far east. reached thr and called epul, cos he's thr at fareast too. hung out with him and his friends for a while, while waiting for sister and bf. after that, hung out with sister and bf for awhile then walked to the mrt station aft tt cos sister didnt drive, they came by bike. so had to go hm all alone. it sounds sad, i knw. bt i enjoy gg hm alone. hahahaha =) then i remmbered i had to text helmi, so texted him in the train. and coincidentally, we were a few trains away, so he told me to go bck with him. waited for him at aljunied station until 10.15pm. entered the WRONG DOOR, and thr were mats righhhhht at the door. i was like 'fucking shit!' bt just walked in with a straight face. god, damn irritating. hahahaha =) okay, stuffs happened which im sooo not gonna blog hre. yest was a day of MATS. there were soooooooo many mats, at Taka, at fareast, along the way, in the train, at the mrt stations. ive NVR had soooo many mats involved in one day of my life. just toooo many to take. soso, anwys, finally met helmi at tampines even though we took the sameeee train. hahahahha! sooo funny. he's right in front of me, and we were talking on the phone. wth? hahaha! walked together to the bustop in front of sunplaza park cos i needed to puff. hey, i had more than 6 hours of nerve-wrecking moments okay! then took bus 18 to my hm. helmi's sooo sweet. accompanied me hm, though he was superrrrr damn tired frm the NDP rehearsal. =)) chilled under the blk for awhile to puff my last stick untill 11pm. helmi sent me right to my lift after that. awww. =) didnt really wanna slp aft getting home. cos i didnt want the day to end. i reallyreally didnt want it too. the day was a BLAST. i really enjoyed my day =)anwys, this morning, had breakfast with family at Vivo =)) then went jalan2 ard thr. me,mother and brother went to Espirit to buy stuffs ( I CANNOT SAY ANYTHING ) while father and sister went to Daiso to buy her stuffs. brother is sooooooo sweet! he bought me an Espirit bag which costs 40 bucks. =)))) i saw the bag, and fell in love. asked him and mother whether it's nice. they said yes, very nice. anddd thennnn, brother asked, ' Nk tk? ' .. and i was like ' tanye tu kirekn ape tuuu? ' hahahaha! and he said he'll buy for me if i want lah. hahahahaha =)))) thank you, abang!! appreciate it lots and lots anddddd lots! after that, we sent mummy to jurong for her revision class at ard 2pm. and the rest of us, daddy, brother, sister and me went suntec to carrefour. OMGGGGGG! i reallyreally want this mp4. fuck. it's sooooo nice. brother wants to buy me mp3, bt i want mp4. bt dammit, its abit expensive. so i'll think abt it first. after jalan2 at carrefour, we all went to coffeebean to chill and drink. hahahaha =)) sooo fun and cute! =) we chilled thr until ard 4.30pm and went jurong to fetch mummy. sooo, hre i am blogging abt what i just did. just came hm.=))))))))))))))LIFE'S GOOD.life's fucking GOOD. WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
