Kiss The Sun Away ♥

LET GO.

Date: Friday, October 31, 2008

Saying Goodbye

i thought i could be every little thing you wanted.
every little thing you ever needed.
i never thought it'd go this way.
i never thought it'd end like this.
idk whether to love you for all your sacrifices and love.
or whether to hate you for hurting me so bad.

P.S: i think im too strong for myself.
i NEED to cry, someone pls.
Pls make me cry.

Labels: heartbreak

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

SHAKE AH SHAKEEEEE!!

Date: Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I AM NOT SHORT. I AM NOT SHORT.
I AM NOT SHORT.

I DO NOT LOOK FAT. I DO NOT LOOK FAT.

I DO NOT LOOK FAT.

hellohello earthlings =))

i have sooo manymany things to update.

=))

okay. firstly, with regards to the pix above, i went to work with babyboy at Lagun on monday frm 12pm-5pm. HOHO. okayyy. it was like some ceramah event, like lagu2 nasyid all. hahaha! i know! then gt syarahan all. hahaha! some of the makcik2 there, aiyooooo. mintak kene smack. sooo demanding! sooo anyways, met aunt and some new frens. Nabila and Erra, the pix above. kak shila and kak ayu. they're nice ppl =)) enjoyed working that day. BUTTTTT NOW, im having furrreaking muscle aches all over okay! and its been TWO days. PFFT. i really think something's wrong with me. im right-handed, bt i seem to do everything with my left. and my left arm muscles are bigger than my right's. NO MATTER WHAT I DO. tell me, how retarded is that???

p.s: my left arm muscles are bigger than my boyfriend's.

I SWEAR.

ANYWAYSSSSS.

BROTHER'S GETTING MARRIED!!

YESYESSSS. =)))

followed parents, brother and kak zana to buy a wedding ring on saturday.

OKAY. I SOOOOOOO CANT WAIT.

imagine, soon i'll have little nephews and nieces. HOW CUTE!

anddddd, i've decided to get retained instead of gg over to poly.

=) all thanks to beloved brother, and the superrrr long talk.

only HE can knock some sense into my head.

so yeah, the tension between me and my parents, ITS OVER!

idk what's wrong with me, bt i kinda cant wait for next yr.

CRAZY, much? hahaha. =)

im planning to change my subject combi to either H2 Math, Chem, Geog and H1 Phy. Or H2 Math, Chem, Phy and H1 Geog. idk, might take awhile to think over it.

i swearrrr to god, im gonna study like fuck for the next two years. disappointed too many ppl this yr, including myself. no more fooling ard, skipping school or wtv shit. okay, maybe once or twice might be reasonable. i just wanna do freaking well next yr..i swear i do. i knw im not stupid. bt i failed to overcome the power of laziness, and thus i've disappointed myself well enough. im gonna start studying during the hols. not kidding.

*SERIOUS FACE*

okay, so as you can see. im in a veryvery happy good mood today. i have noooo idea why.

anw, i was planning to quit being a cheerleader.

BUT, baby says NOOOOO.

'you cant quit being a cheerleader. you're the only cheerleader i know.'

HAHA, BABY. SELFISH! *STICKS OUT TONGUE*

okay, maybe i wont quit just yet.

sigh. -.-

and im sick.

must have gotten it from THAT STOOPID BABY DARLING.

bt still, i loveee him. =)

i love his company. and sometimes, he's soooo BELO, he gets on my nerves.

BUT still, i reallyreally do love him.

*shake shake, shake shake shake me!*

SHAKE AH SHAKEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Labels: love

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Friday, October 24, 2008

hellohello =))

these are some pictures taken at baby's hs yest =)))
and that's aryati's guitar!
HAHAHA. okay.

Here I am, everyday,

since you said, you'd come again
But it's not fair, 'cause you're not here
I wait in vain but nothing has changed
I'm a flower soaking in the rain
If I could wish one thing, I'd hear you call my name

So when will I see your face again
When will you touch my life again
When will I breathe you in again
I think I love you
Will I see your face again
Little things, like the way
She looked at me a certain kind of way
Tell me girl, where are you now
Because I don't know how much longer I can wait
I'm a dreamer waiting for the sun
When you call my name I know my life's begun

Tell me girl
When will I see your face again
When will you touch my life again
When will I breathe you in again
I think i love you
Will I see your face again

You know that all my life I've been waiting
Waiting for someone, someone like you to love me
You can't come by like an angel into my life
And then fly away
Fly away

When will I see your face again
I've only seen you once my love
When will you touch my life again
I want to see you twice my love

When will I breathe you in again
I think I love you

When will I see your face again my friend
I think I love you
Love love love you

MY BABYBOY

Shaik Mohamad Helmi.

My One and Only.

You know I love YOU.

only you.

a friend once told me :

'' the first few mnths of a relationship are always the best times. But after the third month, true colours will start to show, relationship'll gt worse, more fights occurring. And the happily ever after will be gone.''

BUT HEY.

guess what?

it's been more than three months since i've loved him.

and it's been three months we've been officially together.

true colours were out long time ago,

gone thru manymany fights.

but we're still going on strong.

still loving him, even much stronger.

still going on strong, baby.

-NOTHING BEATS SHAIK MD HELMI.

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Thursday, October 23, 2008

hellohello =)))

TUESDAY, 14102008.

went jalan raye with the boys! Hafiz, Fir, Farid and Emi himself. =)) MY FAVOURITE BOYS!
it may look pathetic, with only 5 ppl raye-ing. BUTTTT, it was one of the funnest and funniest raye i'd ever had. =))

FRIDAY, 17102008.

went to work with my baby at Bukit Batok East. HAHA. tired, bt fun! worked from 10am-3pm.

MY FIRST EVEREVER JOB!

SATURDAY, 18102008.

went jalan raye with my SAJC friends!!!! there was Nadh, Sakinah, Amalina, Ros, Farina, Nadia, Farid, Danial and Ibrahim. IT WAS FUCKING FUN! ONE OF THE BEST! =)))

i really laughed my ass off. really i did.

andddd i have yet to get the pix frm ros and nadh, so will upload them as soon as i gt them.

SUNDAY, 19102008.

went town with Emi. ha a few upsetting things here and thr, bt it was all okay in the end. =)

he stopped by my hs, and sat ard at my hs from 8pm till 10pm. HOHO! Long or what??!!

MONDAY, 20102008.

HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY DARLING =)))))

TUESDAY, 21102008.

nothing much, went to TP after sch to teman Emi during his break from 3plus till 6pm.

then went hm and watched The Happening and Definitely Maybe. =))))

WEDNESDAY, 22102008.

nothing much also, went to TP aft sch. and headed to his hs afterwards to teach Khairil math.

THURSDAY, 23102008.

as you can see, im not really in a mood to talk abt stuffs nw, right?

hoho.

having a bad time.

yes, with Emi. about? stuffs.

should be alright soon.

hope so.

LIFE SUCKS FOR NOW.

FOR ONCE.

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

ASSHOLE.

Date: Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I AM SO FUCKING SCARED.

dont think i'll make it.
fuck.
disappointing my parents tmr.
think i'll break down.
maybe, maybe not.
prepared myself for the worst.
yet, dont think i'll be able to accept the fact.
i feel fucking lost.
dont knw what i shd do.
i know NOTHING now.

i feel fucking fucked up.
and just so you know, i am my own disappointment.

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

WOC RAYEEEE!!!!

Date: Saturday, October 11, 2008

HELLOHELLO =)))

went out with the Watchout ppl yest for jln raye =)) Emi fetched me at ard 3plus, and we chilled ard my blok first while waiting for the rest. after sweating like a pig (yes, LITERALLY), Shameer, Wan, Fir and Zainida fetched us from tpjc to go to Syaf's hs. and it was alrdy, erm 4 plus? hahaha =)

okay, wtv happens- it's all stated in the pix. so yeah. all i have to say, i reallyreally enjoyed my day yest. it's the best raye ive ever ever had. =)

but sadly, couldnt go to my baby's hs with them. my hs was supposedly the last hs. bt then by 11pm, we were still at Zaini's hs. left with my hs and baby's hs. so we had to proceed to my hs first. and i couldnt follow them back to darling's hs. =( BUTTTT. i made it up by gg to his hs just nw. =)) and to his mother, THANK YOU SOO MUCH. only baby knws what im talking abt.

WOC