Kiss The Sun Away ♥

Date: Wednesday, May 28, 2008

I always needed time on my own
I never thought
I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date:

im blogging now, at 4am in the morning, cos i cant slp. fuck it.
fuckitfuckitfuckit.
i have trouble sleeping nwadays.
im superrrrrrr exhausted and drained out.

le garçon de bébé, c'est dur pour moi maintenant. trop pour moi pour prendre. je ne sais pas pourquoi je vous manque si mal. encore, je ne peux pas crier ou sourire quand je pense à vous. tout est un désordre. avec la compétition le levant, tout dont j'ai besoin est votre étreinte et votre voix. la narration de moi tout sera bien. beaucoup beaucoup d'amis se trouvent présent pour me calmer, mais tout ce que j'ai besoin est vous. juste votre voix me calmant fera. Dieu. c'est si dur maintenant. je ne peux pas nier le fait que vous êtes une partie de moi. et je penserai à vous withut quotidiens échouent. pourquoi ?juste pourquoi ? le fait de baiser la merde. quand je pense à vous, je ne peux pas crier ou sourire. il ressemble je suis une poupée humaine. j'ai besoin de vous ici, mais je ne veux pas que cela arrive. et je sais qu'il ne va pas arriver en tout cas. pourquoi devrais-je me soucier, n'est ce pas ? et je suis censé être sur vous, puisque je suis celui qui a dit au revoir. mais je vous aime trop laisser vont, le miel. je vous aime trop. Dieu. quelquefois je regrette que vous ne soyez pas ici, me serriez dans ses bras serré et ne laissiez jamais vont. je suis heureux, très beaucoup heureux avec ma vie. mais tout ce que je sens est le vide profondément en bas. cela se sent incomplet. incomplet sans vous. je vous manque, wiwi bunny. je vous manque très mal. et je peux refuser que je vous aime toujours. mais, je crois que vous le savez vous-même je vous suis toujours presque agrafé. et nos souvenirs. je vous aime toujours, le chéri.

to everyone, dont bother trying to translate everything that ive typed.
i just needed to let everything out.
to ease my mind,okay.
goodnight, babes.
=)

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Thursday, May 22, 2008

im sorry things didnt go the way we planned it. im sorry to have hurt you in any way at all. im sorry for making you think i didnt appreciate you at all, cos i do. im sorry for making you the person you are now. im sorry for still loving you and being unable to let go of our memories. im sorry for missing you, your eyes, your kiss, your touch, your laughter, your smile, your beloness, your jokes, your voice, your comfort, your hug. and i've nvr told you this, bt thank you for everything. seriously, thank you. for the things you've done for me. the sacrifices, the love, the concern. cos baby, no one can ever ever ever give me that. anyone can tell im still very much hooked up to your memories. i dont even knw why. im trying to let go, bt it's pretty impossible. but if letting go makes you happy, i will. i will do anything just so you'll be happy. and, it's okay if you dont miss me anymore. it's okay if you dont love me anymore. im writing all these, not because im expecting anything in return. i dont expect anything at all. im writing all these, so that you'll be aware. if someday you think that i dont love you anymore, baby you're wrong.

*sometimes, it's too late when you finally realise what's in front of you*
HAPPY 22ND MAY, DARLING. i hope and pray for your happiness always, babyboy.

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Wednesday, May 21, 2008

hellohello =))

im in school nw. haha =) slacking as usual. anwys, last sunday, went out with sheenaaaaa for a study date =)) met her at 3pm at tanah merah mrt. then took the train to airport. hahaha, went down at T2, went to T3, then went to T1 BK. hahaha, went into lingerie shop. hahahaha! sheena lah! not me eh. hahaha, we studied chem =))) ok, i didnt do much progress, bt she did more than what i did. haha =) good for her!

anddd monday was Vesak Day. one of my greatest days, this week. woke up at 1pm, haha yes 1pm.ate, bathed and all. kak zana was at my home. then all of us, except for sister, went out at 2plus to Cashbox Karaoke Studio. reached thr ard 2.55pm. OMYGAWWWWWWWWWWWD. IT WAS SOOOOOO FREAKING FUN!!!! sheeshhhhhness =))) but one sucky thing, it brought up muchmuch memories which..made me kinda sad. especially, with daddy and brother singing jiwang songs and sister singing 'JANGAN PISAHKN'. if you're reading this, you shd knw better okay?i dont knw whether or not you do remmber, bt yeah. karaoke-ing with family did bring up LOTS of memories with you.

ok, lets get over it alright. anywys, aft karaoke-ing until 6 plus, we went to Lau Pa Sat to eat dinner. mygawd, that guy is hot. hahah =) bt whatever eh. we finished dinner ard 8pm, and sent kak zana hm first. the rest of us headed to Queensway Shopping Centre to buy my cheerleading shoes. hahaha =) im wearing the shoes now, bt OMYGAWWWD, its soooo painful. im having like blisters all over! kk yest, had cheer training frm 4pm till 9pm. reached hm ard 11pm. =)) hahaha, single life is fuckin fun. you dont have to care abt anyone waiting for you, dont have to worry abt ppl calling u and txting you andddd you certainly dont have to report strength 24/7. =)) LIFE IS GOOOOOOOD BEBEH! =)

today, having my training again. until 9pm again. and tmr will be the same thinggggg AGAIN. im like half-dead now. like, seriously. anwys, have lotssss of pix frm monday, karaoke-ing session with family. will upload it when i FINALLY have some free time, and aft i gt it frm brother =))

TAKECARE DARLINGS!

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Friday, May 16, 2008

hellohello =)))

came home from cheerleading =)) training at 3pm, but i came at 4.30pm, and ended at ard 9pm. had soooo much fun, aft such a long time. im starting to love cheerleading =) its all back frm the very start, baby! andddd, me, amalina, melissa and geraldine got chosen to join the SAJC Team for SKM Cheerleading Competition this 31st May. venue, idk whr. BUUUUT im sooo freaking excited =))))) cheerleading bebeh! ROCK ON EH. kk da mepek. like amalina said, stop it sak fez. ahaahahahaaaa =)) excuse me for my extra hyperness.

anwys, this morning got an interesting news. i got through to the finals of Saints Idol. ahahaa =))) omygosh, i was surprised really. cos they didnt msg me or wtv to inform me i gt thru. sooo, i was like wtv lah yest. ahahaahhaaaaa, seriously, this week is the best week! thank you god. really.

anddddd, a new car's coming to meet the family darlings!gawwwwd. scrap the old, baby! ahahaha, sure gonna miss the old car. many memories to be remmbered. buuut, CANNOT WAIT FOR THE NEW ONE TO ARRIVE!!

alhamdulilah, this week's filled with good news. for me, and family. im veryyy happy today, though tired as hell. and i haven eaten since 2pm.lazy to eat, tired okay! and tmr supposed to go out with kimmie, buuut aiyoooo tt guy ahhh! accident during soccer match. i wassss soooo damn shocked when i gt the msg frm him. sheeshnesssss.

* told you to take care kan! kan, degil! org ckp jgn maen bola, DEGIL. just takecare of urself and have enough rest at home okay? i was damn speechless when i read ur msg. and PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE, take extra care of urself the next time round yeah dearest? anddd, mane itu budak ite clementi???? MINTAK KENE SMACKKKK AH. sukati mak bapak die je make my friend injured! *

and to cik adik DIAH sayanggg, pls eh. dont use the word LOVE right now. its not the right time. maybe one day, who knws? just MAYBE. you can nvr knw what's in it for you in the future.

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Thursday, May 15, 2008

Will you count me in?

I've been awake for a while now.
You've got me feeling like a child now.
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face,
I get the tingles in a silly place.

It starts in my toes,
And I crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I'll always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.

The rain is falling on my window pane,
But we are hiding in a safer place.
Under covers staying dry and warm.
You give me feelings that I adore.

They start in my toes,
Make me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I'll always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.

What am I gonna say,
When you make me feel this way?
I just...mmm.

And it starts in my toes,
Makes me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I'll always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.

Da-Da-Dum-da-da-da-da-da.

I've been asleep for a while now.
You tucked me in just like a child now.
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms,
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth.

It starts in my soul,
And I lose all control.
When you kiss my nose,
The feeling shows.
'Cause you make me smile.
Baby just take your time now,
Holding me tight.

Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Wherever you go,
Always know,
'Cause you make me smile even just for a while.

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date:

hellohello =))))

monday, didnt do anytg..went hm to slp, instead of watching rugby match. tuesday, had physics test. AND I WILL FAIL AGAIN. wed, went hm and did nothing. slept at 8pm all theeeee wayyy to 5.40am the next morning. hahaha =))

andd todayyyyy. supposed to watch soccer match. SAJC vs MJC. bt cant be bothered. went home to change. went out at 4.30pm to meet A FREN at tamp interc. met him, smoked first, then headed to TM to eat long john. haha =) sooo funny. then lorraine msged me. fcuk, she saw me. haha,so called her and met her. talked for awhile, and she went bck to her frens afterwards. generally, just chilled ard. had a GREAT day. really. =))) shall not say anytg more, cos words cant really describe babe.

* things just happen, baby. when you least expect it. *

and as for you, boy, thanks for the great day out. though it's been a short meeting.
im happy.
=)))
cheerios darlings =)))

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Saturday, May 10, 2008

hellohello =)))

woke up today at 8.30am. indra msged abt stuff, replied, called alia and went back to slp. slept alllll the way till 12pm. alia called and we made plans. ate, then got ready to go out. waited at lia's bustop ard 2.30pm, talked till 3 at the bustop. then headed to city hall. just chilled and caught up with each other's lives. goddddd, its been sucha longgggg longgggg time since ive seen her. miss her sooooooooo damn much. MUCHMUCH MORE THAN I MISS ANY GUYS AT ALL. my bestie for 8 years. =))))) LOVVVVEEE HER DAMN MUCH.

anwys, we left esplanade ard 4.45pm and went to Arnold at City Plaza to join my family for daddy's bday dinner.haha, weird thing is: alia's been my bestie for 8 yrs bt she's nvr met my whole family. very weird. hahaha! felt damn complete. spent the day with my loved ones. didnt feel emptiness or wtv shit. just felt complete.

tmr,gg out with darling classmates. watching What happened in Las Vegas. lia said it's a very gd movie. veryvery looking forward to it =))) took some pix with lia just nw. bt waiting for her to send me. soooo, will upload when i get them alrighty =))

goodnight y'all!

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Thursday, May 8, 2008

hello =)))

HAPPY BDAY DARLING DADDY!! may you have the happiest life a dad could ever have =)) i love you papa!

today's daddy's bday, as you can see lah kan. anywys, i could still remmber this day last year VERY clearly. watched spiderman 3 with him.

if you were still here, you would've been the one choosing for me my dad's bday card. if you were still here, i would be asking you what to buy for daddy, and you would be the one thinking for me. if you were still here, you would have been here, right here with me, celebrating daddy's bday. if you were still here, i wouldnt be sitting alone this coming saturday, watching the rest eating and talking happily with their own partners. ONLY IF you were still here...

met joe just nw at bedok. gosssshhhh. it's been a month plusplusplus since he left for taiwan. and nowwww, he's back! YAYness! missed him super damn much. chilled and talked, and i left aft an hr to buy stuffs at tm.

WELCOME HOME TO SPORE, SWEETHEART =))))

i feel like something's missing in my life.
bt idk what the hell is it.
im trying to fuck care now, fuck the world. like bestie told me to.
but maybe, i just cant ignore the world.

i just cant, alia.

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Monday, May 5, 2008

hellohello =))

watched rugby match SAJC Vs ACJC at bukit timah. Anddddd, my sch won lah. DUH~! aku kn good luck charm. anddd omg. the gorgeous rugger, damn sexy. he's a good player, a fair one. =)) if we talked, i would have congratulated him. bt too bad, we dont.

to three ppl who matter in my life.

ANONYMOUS 1.
i dont knw how the hell to tell u this. oh well, straight to the point. i dont want to BE with you. i dont see us being together, not now not tomorrow. really,im sorry. uve been a nice friend. a VERY nice one. and i dun wanna lose u completely. i wanna be ur buddy too, to see u smile when u finally find the perfect one.bt i guess things just wont be the same anymore.

ANONYMOUS 2.
i SEEEEERIOUSLY dont knw what the hell is ur prob, boy. first, you reallyreally made me like you for being urself. fuck it. really liked you. bt then, u changed and left w/o even a gdbye. lying to me, babyboy. seriously, get a life. i knew it right frm the start. you couldnt move on, you wouldnt. still have the guts to say you did. im nt that naive, babe. i knw. let's just get a move on, okay?and i do miss you.i'll just try to get over it. you should too.

ANONYMOUS 3.
it's been almost a month since u left for taiwan. andddd i miss you like hell. come home okay? i do have tons of things to tell you.things u might have been waiting for. cant wait to cya again =)

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Saturday, May 3, 2008

hellohello =))

woke up at 11.30am. was dreaming of something, couldnt remmbr what, when indra called. fuck. i was still soooo damn slpy lah. hahaha! okok thennn, waited for darling parets to come hm. needed to tell mummy i wanna go out. so ard 12 plus when they come hm, mummy asked me to accompany her to ntuc fairprice. so i bathed and all. went to eastpt, just the both of us and ate at Sakura. =)))) MY FAVOURITE. ordered some mee, my favourite and talktalk with mother. andddd somehw, asked for her permission and all. so aft gg ntuc, went hm ard 2.40pm and gt myself ready. gedebak gedebukkkk, i met kimi under his blok at ard 3.30? yeah, think so. headed to marina square.

*OUHHHHH, I WAS SO PSYCHED KIMI! MY FIRST TIME GG TO MARINA SQUAREEE!! *

hahahahahhaha =))))

just walked and chilled at starbucks. mygawwwd. starbucks, again kimi! haha =) headed to arab st aft tt.. and sheesha-ed. fuck, idk hw the hell to spell it.

* MYGAWWWWDDD KIMI! SOOO FREAKIN EXCITED! MY FIRST TIME, AGAIN!! *

hahahahahahahaha =))))

okok. we chilled thr frm ard 5 plus till 7pm. had fun, just talked laughed and all. freakin awesomeeee. hahaha! okok.headed bck to tamp aft tt. tot of gg to tm, bt nahhh. tk jdi.
reached hm ard 8pm, chatted with azmi and he had to go out.
and thennn, someone msged me and told me he bought me a rose.

it is damn sweet.
and it's my first rose from a guy.
andddd, it' the loveliest rose ive ever ever seen.

again, thank you kimi.
thank you for everything. from making me happy to making my days.

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥

Date: Friday, May 2, 2008

hellohello =)))

kk tuesdayyy, wth did i do?okay did nothing much. so skip tt day eh..wednesday came hm at 9 plus, cheerldg and all. azmi called, so talked to him all the wayyy until 10 plus i think. then flat out aft that. DAMNNNNNN tired sia! anwyanwy, thurs labour day!! did nothing much. slept in the aftnoon cos SICK..!whole family's sick. sister and daddy GT HIGHHHHH fever. me, mummy and brother was down with flu. im still down with flu actually. ard 6.30, met kimi..actually i wanted to go tmart myself and buy snacks bt thennn, he bought me Lays Barbeque and met me under my blk cos he didnt want me to walk cos im sick. damnnnnn sweet lah! chilled for awhile, smoked pot. haha! okok mepek. we just chilled for awhile till 7 plus and he had to go bck to work. before he went, he passed me two packets of chicken wings from Pizza Hut. i was like superrr damn shocked ah. like wth? he's sooo sweet =)) thanksthanks kimi =)

today, still sick so mummy told me nt to go for cheerldg. took the bus and waited for kimi at the temasek poly bustop. i was soooo damn fucked up ah. BATT FLAT NK MAMPOS! hp cannot use sia.luckyyyy, somehw he rode past the bustop and saw me. he sent me hm at 4pm to let me change. went out to parkway with him to eat at long john. talked and he cracked some lame-ass jokes. DAMNNNN FUNNY LAH! called sister and met her and her bf at tmart, headed to Rasa 21 to watch sister eat. hahaha! gedebak gedebukkkk, he sent me home close to 8pm.

all in all, i had a fun time todayyy =) and thanks to that fren of mine. who always make me smile and forget abt things. =))) hope i get permission to go out tmr =)

WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥