Because when i close my eyes, all i can see is YOU.
HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY, LOVE!!
hoho.
half a year, huh? seems fast,isnt it?
idk howwww many million times ive said this,
but again. I LOVE YOU.
(okayyy ppl, shutup. i knw ure bored READING my 'I love you's)
cant believe we've gone this far.and i hope we'll go further,cos you make me happy all the time.
okay, that sounds self-centered. BUT REALLY! and im sorry for making you suffer all this while. i know im difficult to handle, but you did it. and im still SOOOO in love with you! even after 6 months.
okay, wait. ive been in love with you MORE than 6 months! it's..7 mths, right? we both knw,we're both at fault if anything goes wrong. like, say..you did stupid mistakes and i threw tantrum all over. but you forgave me and vice versa. thr's no such love in the world where thr's no arguments here and there. NOTHING'S PERFECT. if it is, then there must be SOMETHING WRONG. hahahaha =))
im becoming soooo dependent on you, that i hate it.
i hate being sooo un-independent now.
i hate having to have you with me when im out just to buy macs.
i hate talking to you on the phone all the time cos i miss you.
i hate staring at you staring back at me,making me all flushed.
i hate having you to be the one taking care of me,looking out for me.
i hate needing your arms to wrap ard me, just to feel secured once again.
i hate thinking abt you all the time,even the most irritating thing you did.
i hate knowing that my heart will break if you ever hurt it.
i hate laughing in classes,just cos i was thinking of you being silly.
and i hate knowing that how much i try to hate you or hurt you,i'll still love you more.
i just hate you.
HAPPY 6TH MONTH LOVING YOU, BABY.
=)
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WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
WE MAY FIGHT, WE MAY CRY, BUT MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER DIE. 
you call it MADNESS, but i call it LOVE.
hellohello =))
first and foremost, i'd like to say love has been okay again. it was BIG, yes it was. werent okay on saturday morn, met him ard 1pm, talked things out then headed to Erma's house for her bday though we still weren't okay.
( BTW! HAPPY 16TH BDAY, ERMA! ).
and the rest of the day after that, seemed wonderful.
on the phone for hours that night. cried, talked, laughed.
spent time with him on sunday at his house. helped him with his school work.
argued again that night. chaos on monday morn.
met on monday afternn after my Oral Presentation.
didnt really talked things out, but we're okay nw.
Angel darling.
tell you the truth.
it hurts. i did hurt so bad. and part of me didnt want to forgive you.
because i knw i can nvr forget.
bt like i said 'sometimes love can overcome the betrayal'.
i can pick fights, i can debate sooo much over the phone.
but when i come to face you, i go speechless.
i didnt scream my head off abt this matter. in fact, i didnt really knw hw the hell to react. it was too painful. if possible, i'd want to rewind everything back and tell you nt to do it.
i'd love to say 'baby, let's put this matter behind us. and move on to something new, something fresh.' but darling, i cant. atleast im nt READY to.
but what i knw is,
what i can say is, 'i do find it in my heart to give you a second chance'.
because i do love you.
i love you so much, it hurts.
it hurts because, even thou im hurting, i still could accept you back.
this is crazy.
when i look into your eyes, i know im yours to keep baby.
when i look into your eyes, i see everything im looking for.
when i look into your eyes, i see my future with you.
when i look into your eyes, i know you dont mean to hurt me.
when i look into your eyes, i know nobody else can love me the way you do.
when i look into your eyes, i know you hold the key to my heart.
ONLY YOU.
right now, i cant say we'll last forever.
but i can say, im not letting you go.
when i think of you, i think of the happy times with you.
not the horrible moments we've gone through.
and that's what matters the most.
the happiness you've given me all these while.
i do hope we'll get through this bad patch, and i promise you i'll try my best to make this work.
My life was flashing before my eyes
A second later, I walked and realized
My heart had crashed and burned in shame
You pulled me from the flames
I took your hand and you helped me upon my feet
I confessed but you had forgiven me
There's courage in the truth you said
Our love will never end
You shield me from danger, you're my shelter
You are my hiding place
There's and Angel on my shoulder, here tonight
Making sure that I'm alright
When I'm falling fast, you rescue me, you love unconditionally
And when I'm cold and so alone
Back in your arms I feel at home
I pray that you will always be,
A guardian Angel
Sent for me
My dream comes between us every now and then
I make mistakes, get in trouble, time and again
I ain't proud of who I am
When I'm down you understand
Blinded you can always seem to show the way
You're the light
You're the reason I'm here today
If you cry, I cry, So dry your eyes
There's an Angle on my shoulder, here tonight
Making sure that I'm alright
When I'm falling fast, you rescue me, you love unconditionally
And when I'm cold and so alone
Back in your arms I feel at home
I pray that you will always be,
A Guardian Angel
Sent for me
you'll always be my hero. the one who saves me from my fear, my sadness.
and i know that i'll be loving you for a very long time.
Long time, baby.
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WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
I AM NOT SHORT. I AM NOT SHORT.
I AM NOT SHORT.
I DO NOT LOOK FAT. I DO NOT LOOK FAT.I DO NOT LOOK FAT.
hellohello earthlings =))
i have sooo manymany things to update.
=))
okay. firstly, with regards to the pix above, i went to work with babyboy at Lagun on monday frm 12pm-5pm. HOHO. okayyy. it was like some ceramah event, like lagu2 nasyid all. hahaha! i know! then gt syarahan all. hahaha! some of the makcik2 there, aiyooooo. mintak kene smack. sooo demanding! sooo anyways, met aunt and some new frens. Nabila and Erra, the pix above. kak shila and kak ayu. they're nice ppl =)) enjoyed working that day. BUTTTTT NOW, im having furrreaking muscle aches all over okay! and its been TWO days. PFFT. i really think something's wrong with me. im right-handed, bt i seem to do everything with my left. and my left arm muscles are bigger than my right's. NO MATTER WHAT I DO. tell me, how retarded is that???
p.s: my left arm muscles are bigger than my boyfriend's.
I SWEAR.
ANYWAYSSSSS.
BROTHER'S GETTING MARRIED!!
YESYESSSS. =)))
followed parents, brother and kak zana to buy a wedding ring on saturday.
OKAY. I SOOOOOOO CANT WAIT.
imagine, soon i'll have little nephews and nieces. HOW CUTE!
anddddd, i've decided to get retained instead of gg over to poly.
=) all thanks to beloved brother, and the superrrr long talk.
only HE can knock some sense into my head.
so yeah, the tension between me and my parents, ITS OVER!
idk what's wrong with me, bt i kinda cant wait for next yr.
CRAZY, much? hahaha. =)
im planning to change my subject combi to either H2 Math, Chem, Geog and H1 Phy. Or H2 Math, Chem, Phy and H1 Geog. idk, might take awhile to think over it.
i swearrrr to god, im gonna study like fuck for the next two years. disappointed too many ppl this yr, including myself. no more fooling ard, skipping school or wtv shit. okay, maybe once or twice might be reasonable. i just wanna do freaking well next yr..i swear i do. i knw im not stupid. bt i failed to overcome the power of laziness, and thus i've disappointed myself well enough. im gonna start studying during the hols. not kidding.
*SERIOUS FACE*
okay, so as you can see. im in a veryvery happy good mood today. i have noooo idea why.
anw, i was planning to quit being a cheerleader.
BUT, baby says NOOOOO.
'you cant quit being a cheerleader. you're the only cheerleader i know.'
HAHA, BABY. SELFISH! *STICKS OUT TONGUE*
okay, maybe i wont quit just yet.
sigh. -.-
and im sick.
must have gotten it from THAT STOOPID BABY DARLING.
bt still, i loveee him. =)
i love his company. and sometimes, he's soooo BELO, he gets on my nerves.
BUT still, i reallyreally do love him.
*shake shake, shake shake shake me!*
SHAKE AH SHAKEEEEEE!!!!!!!
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WITH ALL MY HEART, ANGEL.♥
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